Let me start with why I wanted to start blogging and podcasting. First of all, I have had the experience of being a pastor for over 10 years working with teenagers, parents, marriages on the rocks, financial hardships, and many more scenarios and situations where I was able to observe and learn from all kinds of different people. I think I have gleaned a few things that might be worth sharing. Second, related to the first, I have become quite passionate about seeing people be responsible with their lives. I have realized that we have the opportunity to change our lives in ways never imagined if we just put the effort in and take responsibility for who we are. Shoot, I even came up with a funny title for it a year ago. Blip Lip meaning a Blip on the radar or something that you notice that may change your course of action or at least make you aware of some things you may not have seen, and Lip my mouth or my name phonetically sounded out backwards. Finally, I have a desire to see my fellow man step up and stand up for something. It is too easy not to, which leads me to my rebuttal for not doing this blogcast thing.
I have one very simple reason for not starting Blip Lip. I am lazy... (smiley face). The idea has always sounded good in my head but putting it in to play just seems like it would take up too much of my time.
So many great ideas never happen for this reason. I have seen marriages show up in my office with divorce papers in hand and with a little guidance and strength from the Lord they are happily married today. I have seen couples broke with not a penny to put their name to, now are doing quite well financially. I have seen men take responsibility for their actions and change their lives. Even still, it has been a cool thought to talk about these amazing things and share with anyone who will listen but in reality, I have found it much to easy to not.
Seriously, I have worked all day at a job that takes up a ton of time and emotion, that when I get home and have finished being dad and husband, I feel it is time to check out and have a some me time. I have earned it so why on earth would I spend time doing even more?
This has been my ongoing battle until November 1st, when my 8 month old beautiful son, Nathaniel died of SIDS. He is a beautiful boy and was healthy with nothing wrong with him and then he was gone.
I have had my heart ripped out. I have been broken. I have been pushed to the edge of my own sanity. The pain can be crippling. However, the last thing I was able to do for my son was a tribute at his memorial. It may be one of the hardest things I have ever done. With a broken bleeding heart, I told all in attendance who he was and what he meant to me. I owed him that as a father.
It was this that made me realize what I have been thinking all along, these musings, ideas, and observations are worth fighting for. Just as it is my duty to be a real father to my children, I feel that it is time to share with and challenge others to do the same. Not just dads to children, or husbands to wives, but owning who we are and fighting for it.
I am a Christian who loves Jesus and in my darkest hours was never once left alone. I love my son Nate and I miss him, but his short life has inspired me to fight for what I believe in.
I hope that you will join me in my journey of discovering what it means to honor and love our God, Lord Jesus Christ, and become a responsible, respected, man or woman, while enjoying the privileged of grace in our messiness and imperfection.
The journey continues...
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